Struggling...

I am struggling today. Not with my children or with my home and not with my sweet Nathan. I am struggling in my heart today. There is an ongoing struggle, one that goes back many years, that hurts my heart deeply. There have been so many times when I have felt progress has been made with it and the end of the issue seems to be so very near that I can smell it; so close even that I am beginning to rejoice in it's closure. Then, like a lightening flash, it rages again and my heart is as troubled as it has ever been. The hurt is brewing right now and I don't want it. I want to be able to brush past this offense and not let it curtail into something that causes stumbling. However, I am already beginning to trip over it as I type this.

I am not free to share the details of this struggle, but I pray that the Lord will hear my heart right now and will comfort me. The Lord knows the details and I pray that He will lead me in this.