Don't get your hopes up! There is still no album drop date scheduled for my highly-anticipated, acoustic, bohemian-style versions of your favorite nursery rhymes!! hahahaha... I just feel (yet another) need to be completely honest with all three of you that take the time to read my blog :o)
It IS a new day here for the busy mama. Nathan and I have talked, at length, about some of the issues that I am dealing with. It sounds cliche', but that man knows me like he knows his name. It is a helpful thing to have a husband that is truly your best friend, when you are facing an internal struggle and you are seeking righteous resolution.
Basically, I tend to be a black and white seeing person. I have grace and I have mercy (to a fault probably), but I still look for people to teat me the way I treat them. That isn't always the reality of the situation, is it? At the ripe, old age of 34, I am still struggling with this. Am i the only one?
I have allowed myself to get snared by traps set by principalities who do not have my best interest or my spiritual well-being at heart. I have done this because I have allowed my eyes to be tempted off of MY God-ordained responsibilities and goals; my blessed life as a mother and wife to, arguably, the best family ever :o). Essentially, I have allowed my eyes to be tempted off of God for a short time.
Through the outlet of the Internet, I have been able to stay current and I have been able to communicate instantly with people. when you have a LITERAL house full of kids, however, being current and having access to instant communication aren't always the best tools to have in your arsenal. For me (and speaking only for me), I am distracted by it. I am often (maybe daily) annoyed by it. It has effectively taken up too much of my time and far, far too much of my energy. There is no scandalous affair to report, don't read THAT into this, for goodness sake!!! I have just gotten too used to having a "whole world" at my fingertips that has nothing at all to do with diapers, grocery lists, or flashcards. I have spent this weekend completely focused on my family and it I feel renewed in those efforts. We have gotten a lot accomplished in a little bit of time and it has reminded of just how well the Lord has equipped me for this role. This weekend has started me on the path to being refocused.
The next step is that I am going offline during the day. The computer will be off until after 7:30 pm (bedtime), Monday through Friday. I will have time at night to check in on my sweet friends' blogs and take care of emails. I still need this beast for the convenience of locating necessary materials for homeschooling, Graycen's homework, menu planning, etc. I just need to get my focus BACK onto my family and off of myself for a while. Self-centerdness is a corrosive disease, much like rust, that will eventually breakdown even the core components of the body it leeches itself to. It is contagious and it is destructive. It has no place in the heart of a mother.
This un-plugged time is exactly what I need and I am, so honestly, looking forward to it.