Thursday, August 21, 2008

Ok, so I had to delete my previous post.

As soon as I finished writing it, I checked my bloglines and found this. It was an update on Casey & Dan's blog about their baby boy, Asher, who came into this world on 08/09/8 and left it in the same moment. As hard as my days are and as down as I have been lately, I am not greving the loss of my child.

I am convicted that, even though my struggles aren't sin, my struggles are minor in comparison. They are things that I should push out of my heart and push through like a bad cold. So that is what I am going to do.

For those that read the post before, know that my heart is but flesh and I just don't want to have that old post here in light of the pain that is going on all around me for so many Mamas. For those that posted a comment, thank you very much. I do appreciate you taking the time to comment.

Now I am going to go play a game of TROUBLE with my kiddos and love on them some before bedtime.

6 comments:

Erin Emigh Stanford said...

Totally missed the other post. ;)

Yvonne said...

Sometimes the big picture hits us in the face ... but your stuggles and feelings are still there!! Please deal with them and don't bottle them ... I know from experience what that can do!!! :)

Angela said...

Erin,

Nothing that I haven't told youa bout before :o)

Yvonne,
Thank you so much for caring. Fear not, I am not a bottle it up kinda girl. It isn't in me to be able to do that. Hahaha. Seriously though, I am not good at keeping things bottled up. I kind of wear them right on my sleeve.

Thanks so very much for caring!!!

deniselv said...

I read your post and didn't have time to comment. BTW, I don't think you should apologize for it.

You may already do something like this but, I'm a part of a group of women called W.O.W., which stands for weekly oxygen for women. The concept for W.O.W. came about when one of the ladies was on a flight listening to the speech about how you must do your own oxygen mask first and then take care of your children...by providing for ourselves, we can better provide for them.

We meet once a week during the school year on Friday mornings for a couple of hours and the church provides childcare. We have a book to read, but you can come if you haven't read (some people never purchase it!). We don't do studies like the Beth Moore ones because of the homework. We don't do any service projects, unless someone has a baby and you want to prepare a meal. We have announcements, then discuss the chapters (someone volunteers to facilitate). Then we break off into small groups of four or five because some people feel more comfortable sharing that way. Then we meet back for prayer request.

We don't do parenting or marriage topics..of course we discuss them, but we do grace, character, spirit... It's just a time to breath, and share, and reflect on scripture, and maybe eat a muffin...the whole muffin without stopping.

In the summers, we meet on monday nights because childcare is harder when school is out. But it's a great group. People invite friends, so there are ladies from the community that I wouldn't have met otherwise.

maybe the tugging at your heart is to start a W.O.W. or just give yourself some oxygen...away from the piles of laundry...

and yes, my heart bleeds for casey, too. I read her blog everyday and one day I'm going to get the guts to write.

sorry for the long comment. keep up the good work! I love your blog! denise

Angela said...

Thanks Denise! I appreciate your kind words and your encouragement. I don't want to seem to apologize. I am still trying to work through this, I just didnt want to leave the post up in light of Casey's pain.

I am a member of a local MOPS group and I am looking very much forward to that starting in a few weeks. That will help a lot. I know that this is just a season.

Thanks again for your comment!

Belle in Bloom said...

I have something for you on my blog. :)